never knew

2010-05-25T05:41:00.000-07:00

after so long i dunt noe why i start blogging again

now im busy with my PRCP and alot of thing to prepare

started to take case on my 1st week

and i tell u im lost man...

everyday go hm so tired

but it was nice to work on the weekends...

so peaceful except for some pt though

my preceptor didnt do much so far

and my SN let me take case but only guide me when i ask

the ite student make me feel so outdated

keep asking me things that i dunt noe bout

all i noe is things to do wit K~~~~

and i miss everyone that work wit me

miss going out with ppl...

and lastly i miss most is the time that i used to have...all the free time...

2010-04-04T21:54:00.000-07:00

going jakarta was awesome

did things tat i cunt do here in spore

day 1 we went to puncak

it was cold and it was located between bandung and bekasi

we went to this crater

a dead volcano called perahu terbalik(capsize boat)

then head to bandung

we stopped at a mosque and i tell u it was mind blowing

the water came from the mountain and it was cold

the scenery was out of the world man

we stopped by a restaurant to eat

and im telling u the food was superb

gurame fish and their satay is soooo diff from here

way tooo delicious...

and we got lost along the way...lol...

i kept sleeping in the car

wake up only when reach or got hungry...lol...

then we stay at one of the villa there

no need aircon cos the temp there is cold

wats more it was raining

DAY 2 we went to bandung

we had our 1st indon food

nasi tembel....awesome...once eat wants more...

we went to De Ranch

ride on horses and got fish therapy...

it was fun and ticklish...

then we stayed at one of the resort in the mountain

the temp there was like 8degrees and im wearing singlet and bermudas

we went food hunting and found a place which make delicious nasi goreng seafood

DAY3 we went to tea plantation and batu cinta lake before going hm

we ride on a sampan around the beautiful lake...OMG...

we run around the tea plantation but not far though...

when we reach hm nyanye already cook dinner for us

btw we are staying at arief grandparent hs

she cook the best food man

DAY 4 we went to dufa(dunia fantasi)-fantasy world

the rides there are way awesome than spore rides

sadly it was raining...buhu...

thats the 1st time we ever meet om charlie's gf

DAY5 most of us are sick due to the rain...

we went shopping man...

telling u there is the best place to shop

and at night we went to mona-national monument

its like our merlion but theirs was like torch

DAY 6 we went to lobang buaya(crocodile's pit)

its where 7 indon general was stuffed into a small hole by communist

and a monument was built on their behalf

then we went to their waterfall

we climb all the way up to the pit

but those who cunt got left behind...lol...

the view was awesome...

its all nature better than bukit timah hill

its all jungle and mountain...

got bitten by leeches...

DAY7 we stayed in cos it was gd friday

and arief relative all came

so we had fun together

we ride bike illegally w/o license and helmet...lol...

DAY8 we went last min shopping with om and his GF

ham got label as rich man by the local

while i was label as an artist by them...

cool or wat...they thought tat im an artist...lol...

DAY 9 we stayed hm to packed

DAY 10 we departed and now at hm sweet hm...

gonna missed everyone there...haizz......

2010-03-20T17:55:00.000-07:00

lately my sleeping habits are getting bad to worse

there are even times when i did sleep

dunt really know y

i think i might have hepatitis

wat i noe is tat if ur urine have foam

it shows tat there are high ammino

so i check on the net

and it says that high ammino mean hep

s/s are always sleepy

hands tremor at time

and something else lah....and i have all the symptoms

im listening to lots of new korean song rite now

dunt really stick to one group cos im not a groupie

and hope to get my jollie soon

tats what im gonna name it under the influence of jeremy...lol...

lately it seem tat mum is avoiding dad's family

but who cares rite

yesterday for the 1st time got praised by my aunt

just bcos i solved the riddle

so easy but watever still earn tat $5

time for isolation is coming

12/04/10....so much for wanting to go out

but in the end no more news

plan for me is:

go out till wed, thur stay hm, fri prayer, sat depart

then return on the 6th

go out on 7th, 8th and 9th...10th and 11th need rest

yhen finally 12th isolation for 4 mths...

2010-03-09T23:55:00.000-08:00

sun was nice outing

we went barrage and eat pizza

the day i felt so relax was over

we went for supper that nite

5 ppl ride car and 4 on bike

almost got into an accident thrice

thanks to jamal

1st was at expressway almost hit khai's bike

2nd was at traffic light almost loss control

3rd he bit the red light luckily no car

the next day went gym and ran 3 cycle on track

although tired i was so happy to meet my beloved

went to her hs after dinner and catch up on old time

yesterday went to airport

regret going make me mad only

what is the point of meeting at certain time when u always late

and expect others to wait for u

few mins is okay but 1/2 hr

then nvr apologise but instead play the blaming game

had enough of it

not gonna entertain anymore of this bullshit...

2010-03-06T03:24:00.000-08:00

tml will be the day tat lots of awkwardness

until now i still dunt noe tml plan

am i suppose to just follow or wat???

time of meeting also dunt noe

whenever went out with them this happen

its always last min plan

if no news by tonight me arif and hiid will proceed with our own plan

un the mid of darkness there is light

so excited tat mon gonna meet up with nana all

long time since we meet...

one event at a time until there will be no more

so far left only two event to attend

so tiring and its making me drain my pocket...

cunt wait for posting

wonder how the others are doing now

2010-02-28T06:46:00.000-08:00

well the day everyone have been waiting for has come

everyone in shs 3rd year that is

26th feb marks the day when student become SN

but for me and my fellow friends it mark our last paper

now i dunt noe weather to work or to stay hm???

all i do is get hooked up with my laptop and restaurant city

and so in love with few songs

big bang-lies

fly to the sky-like a man

seungri-strong baby

suju-U

ss501-because i'm stupid

i recommend this songs cos im hooked to them

niwae went to meet lec after the paper

but she was tooo busy to entertain us

she mess up all our schedule and she blame us for being irresponsible

WTF!!!!!feel like slapping her

no wonder she still single...

2010-02-24T07:38:00.000-08:00

this is what happened when you noe so much

u dunt know what to believe in

what is rite and whats wrong

hopefully the plan works

i dunt understand why it is always there

all the time

hate it so much

i lost it just noe

one more time i heard about it

im gonna really F!@# UP man

im sick and tired of it

soon enough everything around me gonna be quiet

planning to hide myself away...

2010-02-18T18:15:00.000-08:00

so got to know that someone manage o get hold of my blog

and misunderstood what i say

but i dunt are cos blog is where i can say what i want

w/o feeling awkward

yesterday went sentosa with ham

suppose to go BPS to meet others but in the end no band

so we meet at ct hall instead to play monopoly deal

the others are so addicted to it

thanks to them i eat too much arghhhhh....

my leg still hurts from running

and now we walk alot -_-!!!!

later going running again....haiz...

i wonder why guys act all weird infront of girls

i mean when they saw girls they instantly so active and loud

ham say its for 1st impression but for me its so fake rite???

thats why to me guys like tat cunt last long with any girls

sad to say but its the truth...

i feel awkward going out with them yesterday

cos i've been talking to myself all day long

luckily ham was there @least we talk alot together

if kept quiet then bear ask me whats wrong -_-!!!

is it cos we talk diff topic or what???

niwae i feel so bad for 'bubbling' zul again

suppose to study with him but in the end i bubble

ARGH!!!!! SO SORRY ZUL....

promise to make it up to you....

2010-02-16T06:21:00.000-08:00

didnt realised that CNY is here

yesterday went to ECP

my aunt suggested it

start with playing with the sand then got wet

all thanks to my little cousin

he so cute

didn't know that going to the beach was his idea

he told my aunt whether his saving is enough to spend

only have $6...lol...

when we reach ECP he was eating but very the messy...lol...

then we had seafood lunch wow....

not only that but i had mutton chop too

then me and my aunt we talking bout how nice it would be

if we were in bali rite now...

and also if my uncle were here to treat us dinner and sent us hm

at 1st we were reluctant to call him then my aunt finally did it

he was at the casino in sentosa-_-!!!

ppl with money really noes how to enjoy

my cousin was so cute

he imitate all my doing

wearing his cap cos no bini for him

then walk barefooted cos im barefooted

then act like me...lol...

and called me hyung

so cute...only listen to me not even to his mum...

then my uncle treat us seafood dinner

too much to eat...

i didnt know that farah can eat sooo much man

she told me she got high metabolism rate

she managed to clean up all the dish plate

not even my mum and aunt can wallop that much

then everything was reveal in the car

so my parent went to buy some food

when i get to know that she went clubbing with her parent

and even drinks

then she say that next time they going clubbing

she gonna invite me along...lol...

2010-02-13T20:46:00.000-08:00

yesterday was fun

went to changi beach for family gathering

so we were not supposed to overnight

but in the end we did cos the kids all pursuit it

so we had a long dai di session

loser went out

but me and one other cousin just talk bout what we wanna for future

then i got to know tat she taking part time diploma

dip in business admin

never knew that MI offer such course

now she taking her 'a' level and dip at the same time

cool or what

atleast now im not the hope of the family but she is

then i teach her to play dai di like a pro

how to read cards but abit hard for her

she keep asking how i noe who got what cards???

then we play soccer

was kinda fun but tiring and sweaty

just because my aunt say she going hm at 5am in the morning

all my little cousin was like counting down how many more hrs to go

then theres bangla or indian ppl fighting

so funny small vs big guy

than they start slapping all...lol...

2010-02-05T08:39:00.000-08:00

today went out with sab ain haz and mabel...

too bad dongsaeng didnt follow

im the only guy

supposed to meet cousin to eat popeye

but he is okay with it

so tml eating with him i think

today ain just confirm that she with khal

and haz brought her future boyfwen...

and everyone has their idle place to work at overseas

and i wonder in future if we remember us????

well they preparing for their thailand trip

and we preparing for exam

and my headache is getting worst

1st was only left sided

but now is the brainstem area

then just now while playing monopoly my head was spinning

but didnt wanna tell anyone

haiz....oh ya...dongsaeng offer me to go korea

but with his family...the sad thing is that

its during our attachment period....

so looking forward man....

just now me and syahir were talking bout the type of girls

our preference lah...

what turns me off to the max are girls who like to beat

abit only beat ppl...SUPER irritating man...

TURN OFF PPL!!!!

and just now at bugis...wow....fed up man

FREAKING BITCH!!!!

U STUPID LOW IQ MINAH!!!!!

MOTHER FKER!!!

she freaking purposely bang on me...

i literally push back...

and then when i turn to stare at her but she just walk and just bang around

like she owned the street...BITCH!!!!

she even bang an old woman...-_-!!!!

this ppl can go and die as long as we care....

dunt deserved to be born...

hope she got knock down by a rubbish truck...

hate MINAH to the core!!!!

even the earth core is not deep enough for their freaking ego...

u FREAKING FAT ASS WHORE...

u should be molested by those india at sentosa countdown

cos u are as low as dirt....MINAH + BITCH=BINAH!!!!!!!!!!!!

now im satisfied...vent all my anger....

2010-01-31T07:50:00.000-08:00

well atleast yesterday i managed to get some sleep

but still got woken up by some weird noises

so tired but cunt get to sleep

and tml we have gym session

8hrs....OMG!!!forget to ask arief along...

nvm...next time...maybe....

today was fun...

went out with family to eat at down town east

my bro treating cos mum bdae just pass

on the 26th jan....

my whole family+my bro's girlfriend+my aunt and little cousin

my little cousin only close to me and only listen to me...

lol,,,dunt know why...but kinda nice

at 1st it was kinda weird cos everyone has a partner except for me

so just act as the cool guy in the family...lol...

and OMFG!!!1i drop my phone trice i think....

then we went to play bowling...lol...

i thought my little cousin how to bowl

and after so long of not play

forgot how much my fingers hurts...

1st game i got second from the top

but the 2nd game i got second from the bottom...lol...

then i took my cousin play the simulation ride

it was quite fun and its giving me a headache man...

my head still hurts...

then went to visit my aunt's husband mother

basically her mother-in-law...

at CGH...ward 18....

then we lie our way through to go up...

lol...stupid crowd control....

and now i cunt sleep...

but at least i didn't have any dream last night

but images just appeared in my thought so often when i close my eyes...

HAIZ.........

2010-01-30T08:48:00.000-08:00

today was soooooo tiring.....

only managed to get to sleep @ 12 noon after spongebob

cunt sleep the whole night

not the first time niwae

ever time i cunt sleep well,that morning i'll have a dream

the 1st time i dream that i got engaged to a friend but

the image of my fiance changed to someone else

who happen to another friend of mine....

the 2nd night i dream that i stole money and laptop from a friend of mine

and when he ask for it back,hiid and zul was there as my accomplice

and help me escape from him

then just now i got a dream of being chased

and im literally panting and cunt sleep

got woken by some weird noises the whole night

then when i managed to get some sleep at noon

my mum woke me up before 2pm...

ANIYO....why disturb me....thought of ignoring her but then

cousin msg me whether wanna go out or not

that is another weird things that is happening

one whole month of not contacting each other

on thursday i meet hiid

on friday i meet arief

and on friday night i meet hiid and jamal

then finally on sat i meet with ham, bear and cousin

its like slowly everyone i returning into my life...

lol...so weird...

hope that today is can managed to get @least 8hrs of sleep

and no more dreams...

so tired felt like collapsing...

nowaday dunt have appetite to eat too

one meals a day...

its kinda not good for me

my fingers are feeling numb at time

and feeling lethargic so frequent

today i only had dinner and yesterday i only had lunch

no no no no no......must changed my diet for my sake!!!!!

and after soooo long i finally meet two lady who i haven't seen

nana berok and mel

they say my appearance have changed

luckily managed to get abit of sleep when out with them

then otw back hm in the train we play

"doors closing"tik x11

we laugh so much that the person infront of us laugh too

2010-01-22T03:48:00.000-08:00

ya so yesterday went out wit haz and fatin

we went to shisha milk flavour kinda nice

played monopoly...kinda fun too

so we chat bout pt then the topic of relationship came out

its like dejavu

it use to be bout ninie and apul but now its bout ain and tat guy

forget bout fwen when attach alrd

my mum so irritating

she keep asking me to acknowledge her everyday

then my bro now very smart

never knew he actually use that brain of his

he kept my lappy in his room and lock the door so tat i cunt take

but now its time for revenge

he not gonna get my lappy nimore

2010-01-18T18:50:00.000-08:00

so what have i been up to...hmmm...

so we went out to mustafa centre

me dongsaeng and fatin

like always they were late...-_-!!!!

and so much for meeting at little india...

it suppose to be at ferrer park

oh ya...before i went to meet them i actually wanted to get out before anyone return

then my mum reach hm before i could go

she ask me am i going out and so i say 'em'

and she said that im being rude!!!!!

WTH rite...she say why nowaday she ask me one thing i answer one thing????

then we went to meet sub and her fwen calista

so went shishaing and its her fwen 1st time

on the way back hm she suddenly say she giddy

and cunt see so we took her tho the nearest toilet

everyone thought that she was drunk...

so funny...she thought that that was the side effects of shishaing

so sub and her cab hm...lol...

then yesterday my grp meet at tampines starbucks to finish our final report

like always side track...

then we went to eat popeye...yummmy!!!!!

i didn't wanna go hm tat early so agreed to follow is meet his fwen

dylan was into k-pop not like me im just fascinated by k-pop...lol...

so we went to ikea-courts and giant...wow...

and every building we went is buy something from there...-_-!!!!

ikea-trow and hand towel

courts-lcd monitor

giant-cigarette

then his mum suppose to pick him up but inthe end she didn't receive his msg....lol...

then i meet zul at tampines int going hm also

so im lazy to queue i cut queue by joining zul...lol...

then we catch up on the old time

when i reach hm my irritating bro like always will ask for my lappy

then out of frustration i scolded him

"lappy lappy lappy...tats all you now...dunt now i just come back is it...get out!!!!"

lol...sever him rite...havent even finish paying me back...

he stupid or what???cunt see i didnt carry anything in my hand rite

cos i hide it in the room...lol...

then i cook meggie to eat its bee hoon and i add chiken in it...

so i need to boil the chiken way before hand b4 i add the noodle

cos bee hoon cook very fast

then my irritating dad will always disturb me...

"ur noodle is cooked...go and check"

then i say"i noe"

his reason was that there was smell already

then everytime my mum cook got smell how???

cooked????no rite....

2010-01-15T06:27:00.000-08:00

today was our final presentation

nvr thought that we make it but ya

tang was impressed by us and even encourage us to bring up to next lvl

collaborate with HPB

mike pay me up and treat us lunch

and i bought my binie...lol...

now all i have to do is aces my socio

im now lock in my room in the dark blogging

i remembered what dongsaeng ask me just now

it makes me reflect alot

if only its like in the drama

im switch in the hospital and my biological parent coming to take me away

would't it be gd...i think...

im coughing non stop man...hate it

whats the point of having a dad who doesn't care

two brothers who only care for themselves

and a mum who only care when she can

im always in my own world at hm cos have no one to talk to

im hiding my laptop from my bro cos the last time they use,my lp was covered with ashes

then just now i have prob opening to the window

dunt now what they do this time...

when i came hm today everyone was looking at me in the weird way

just cunt wait to get out of here

im disappointed that i dunt think i can keep my promise

my promise to take care of my parent when i old enough

i dunt know why i keep get angrier each day

angry at who???i dunt know...

im just CONFUSED!!!!!!

confused confused confused!!!!!

just wanna be alone rite now...

away from them....

2010-01-14T06:13:00.000-08:00

im so fed up with my brothers

one will do niting just to get online and god knows what he'll do

the other one just isn't thinking properly

sometime i think that i dunt even belong in this family

we dunt look alike and our behavior are way out

in term of thinking im way better than them

i have actually said to my mum that mayb,mayb i got mix up in the hospital or something

sometime what my mum do just hurts

i have the habit of asking her what is she cooking for tml

at time she will say im cooking this bcos ur brother dont eat that

he nvr mention bout me before

nvr in my life i heard mum ever said im cooking this instead cos i noe u dunt eat that

she nvr realised anything bout my feeling but pay attention only on my bros

i remember when i was a kid i had to get tuition from my fierce aunt

while my bros got to go tuition at other tutor hs

i was mentally torture that the thought of it make me cry

every time its time for tuition i'll just kept quite until my aunt came

and cried through out the tuition time

but as for my bro,they will always have that smile on their face after tuition

they will nvr noe the meaning of emotional trauma

mum and dad have been pampering them since young

everything i did was wrong but everything they did was right

i remembered all the trouble my brother caused but nothing happen to him

for me,jus saying back and i'll get a lecture

dad nvr love me as much as them all he do is complain to my mum bout how i treat him

since young i've been living my life w/o dad and sibling

although they are there but they were nvr there for me when i need it

mum was there at time only

i crying rite now while blogging cos it hurts to know that from young im not love

i learn to depend on my self and i think tats why i am who i am rite now

I JUST HATE EVERYTHING!!!!!!!

HATE!!!!!!HATE!!!!!HATE!!!!

even if i die they dunt care...

since when they care...

all i heard form mum was 'we care'

ya...whats the point of saying but not doing it...

i think that why im closer to others than my own family...

2010-01-11T09:43:00.000-08:00

sat with dongsaeng was great man

we became like a real dj

he handle the norms songs and i handle those clubbing songs and korean..lol...

but sadly none our friends came....

we nvr eat the free food provided for us but instead we ate MC

to to donsaeng my comp is way better now...

i remember saying that our strength is our weakness

and our weakness is our strength

i think im just lonely and bored

but im @ peace when im lonely and dunt even noe why...

i think im use to being alone with my music...

when im alone i need to listen to music

it take my worries away and keep my mind at ease

i had wee's class just now and we were doing on marriage

we were told to discussed bout the qns given....

QNS:

-would you live with your in-laws?

-division of labour @ hm?

-children?

-who discipline the kids?

-breadwinner?

-relationship with the in-laws?

-leisure spend?

after much thought i dunt think i would like to get married or mayb....

of course every including me have an idle marriage

just that i dunt think i can handle it well

im watching lots of Taiwanese and korean movies nowaday

and in one show i learn something bout love

its not easy to fall in love but its easy to make mistake in love

the lead man remind me of myself

girls come to us with false hope but our intention is simply just being nice and friendly

not the hurt anyone but in the end someone or ourselves got hurt in the storm

-_-!!!!- -!!!:(

2010-01-08T06:36:00.000-08:00

yesterday was super 'mendak'(bored)

the year 1 ppl all very the enthusiatic like WOW!!!!

we just have to briefly explain what it is all bout and just slack at the DJ booth

fine i admit that i make lots of new friends

with the yr 1 and alot of lecturer...lol...

until they see me too much and say"ekh!!!u again"-_-!!!!

so is was late as usual and my dongsaeng 'bubble me but despite that everything goes as plan

then there is this gerl from i dunt noe which sec sch approach me at the dj booth

then she ask me"excuse me, are u malay???"

me:"yes"

she:"oh!!!abg,abg amik course DJ ekh???"(bro u taking DJ course??)

me:"no no no"

she"abg nk minta lagu leh???"(bro can dedicate song???)

me:"kalau nk lagu minta mamat tu"(if u want u ask that guy)

she went to is and said

she:"bang ada lagu apa???tekno ada tk???(bro got what song???techno got???)

is:"sorry dunt have"

lol seh....then all my ballo was gone...finished by the yr 1...

i was force to make for almost all the gerls there flower...

so tired until fall asleep...then when i woke up i felt like gonna fall sick

my throat hurts man...and feverish...

today i felt way better just that i lost my voice

today all the djs came...me,is,alvin and arief

the others didnt even turn up man...

so much for lets go for open hs...

today all my yr 1 all crazy...haywire already espeacially @ nite...

since there is no one we blast the music and open dance floor...lol...

then aaron video us dancing and me pole dancing...lol...

jus for fun onli...

niwae i've been seeing my hot mama so often this day

yesterday meet her then when she going off i said 'saramge hamnida'

then today saw her again...lol....then she told about our drinking experience...

then just noe the yr 1 ppl celebrated one of their friend birthday

so they had cake...then i heard them saying..."ekh we should cut for the 'abg dj'"

lol...then one of them approach us and offer the cake by calling us 'abg' dj'

it was tiring but worth it man...tml will be something new cos no is and onli be me and donsaeng

2010-01-06T07:25:00.000-08:00

my cards

horny devil...lol...

our pledge...

green me...

2010-01-06T06:36:00.000-08:00

finally everything goes as plan

tml is our open hs and feeling so nervous and worried

everything is not up yet and my board is still empty

finally dunt have to worry bout FYP anymore

just need to promote the websites and facebook

ppl pls support us @ web.we.com

and my facebook acc@ daeng.hyung@gmail.com

everything will be up by next week

niwae i highlighted my hair for $35

wonder if tat is cheap????

now i need to keep my hair long cos my personal hairstylist say so

oh ya todae dongsaeng followed me to get portable modenm

my brother ask to use my name but he paying for it...

the man @ the starhub shop didn't believe that i was 21 this year...

lol...i think he think that im younger...

suhaila lend me boyz over flower season 1

i wonder if it is any good???hmmm....

oh and she gonna lend me eng-korea dictionary

so that i can learn my basic...lol...

she taught me quite alot just that i cunt remember everything...lol...

STM me....-_-!!!!!

2010-01-01T06:10:00.000-08:00

so happy new year to everyone out there

but what so good bout another year passing by

last year i was lost at vivo city trying to find my way out to sentosa through the crowd

the siloso beach party was so boring

the songs there sucks man

the onli gd song was ladygaga bad romance

i was so in delima who should i go with

cousin they all or dongsaeng they all???

but i was having heavy hearts bout going with both

behind this smile and laughter ppl dunt know how i feel

they just dunt listen...its just them

thats the way they are i guesse

but what can i do rite...blogging is the onli way

im just like a contain filled to the brim bout to explode

todae i pray to allah for an answer

but i dbout that he will reply

coz i hasn't been praying for sometime

i cried in my heart todae...twice....

im just so confused

i noe that i've been mentioning bout me being confused many time in my blog

but im just being me and letting out what i dunt wanna keep inside

but something meant to be kept,better not to be known

my new year resolution is to keep silent and so i did

it was awkward but the funny thing is that i'm at peace

for the 1st time in my life i did what i want not what ppl wants

i just hope ppl dunt get me wrong and ask about just let me be

2009-12-30T17:46:00.000-08:00

lee teuk

khyuyun

ryeowook

i came across some songs that catches my heart

i was surfing the youtube watching video of suju

then i saw them dueting witn snsd

so there was two songs that i was 'wow' by

the 1st one was 'way back into love' sang be khuyun, donghae, teoyon and jessica

nice man espeacially when kyunyun and teoyon duet...

2nd ond was falling slowly sang by sungmin and sunny...beutiful...

the softer side of them...never knew...

i noe ppl will say this are all old songs but when the original artist sing may not be as nice

then i came across video on suju 2nd album

they were doing this relay talk where each members have to talk bout the next one on line...

leeteuk was talking bout ryeowook dongsaeng and how they grew from stranger to who they are now...they treat each other like biological hyung and dongsaeng....

then ryeowook suppose to say something bout khyuyun but he did mention the same thing bout leeteuk being his biological hyung...and i realize that they the two of them(leeteuk and ryeowook)really meant what they say...the weren't scared to show off their softer side

they are very emotional guys...just like me i think bcoz of that, thats why when the 1st time i saw there shows im into leeteuk and ryeowook onli...not in the gay way though...-_-!!!

so i went to search more on ryeowook and found a prank video of suju

it was a set up scene by khyuyun to make everyone cry so he said something about breaking up

then ryeowook started to cried very badly..others was onli tears down their cheeks

then sungmin and leeteuk hyung went to him to consult him...

he is a very soft guy,emotional and he not afraid of that...yes he is enotionally weak but he is brave enough to admit it and show his real self which many guys cunt...

salute to my dearest suju ryeowook hyung may you succed...

btw suju might be breaking up due to a conflict on their salaries...sad sad sad...

2009-12-27T00:45:00.000-08:00

so finally get to blog
so many thinngs happening and so much to say
i just dunt feel like doing anything rite now espeacially with cousin
not that i hate him or what but it's just that he kept talking about NS
i mean when one book out from NS leaves everything there
dunt always talk bout it
his topic is always NS stuff and he always say "you dunt know cos u havent been to NS"
i mean if u noe that,then dunt talk bout it rite???
then on friday it was so awkward
i didnt say a single word or discuss bout anything
i just played with my hp and hiid's PSP while they all chitchat
then i've been going to town for the whole week so often that i get bored of it
then another topic pop out
it's bout dayah,ninie,apul & apheas....
what!!!!like they care bout us
ninie har!!!she always the spoilt one the troubled one and she called me nonsense
dayah worst then ever, never kept her words always 'bubble' us...pang seh...
apul not much just listen to ninie onli...they and their 'B....' irritating
bear...haiz...i waited 2yrs for my blog but in the end....
he igive me the impression that he is te kinda people that forget his friends
i cunt confirm that cos i am not him
i just cunt wait for everything to go as plan
i plan to stay in singapore for 5years and save up enough to work overseas
then after that i just forget bout all this things and people
yesterday went out with the clique was a change of fresh air
just that haz wasn't there coz of work
we watch the chipmunk...SO CUTE!!!!!!
avatar was awesome man best movie of the year i'll say...

2009-12-20T06:30:00.000-08:00

so i got msg from cousin and thought that there will be no plan on sat for the 1st time
but then he wanted to visit arief @ AH and then went out
so we met and it was raining
we are cousin until that what we wore are the same
but something started to change
we like lost the same interest ever since he enter NS
we dunt have the common topic nowadays
luckily arief joined us if not...haiz....
i felt so awkward wit cousin nowadays but dunt know why
now im abit in peace
no more project and no more presentation
i've told my mum bout me retaining and she was ok wit it as long as i graduate
then the worst happen
i think i got i sign of acute myocardial infarction layman heart attack
but i didnt tell anyone except fatin,alvin,arief and cousin
theres this super sharp pain in the heart rush up my aorta and radiated to the back
the abit breathless and when i took a deep breath, it hurts like shit man

2009-12-16T17:43:00.000-08:00

ya so yesterday we went out to enjoy

me, fatin and alvin dongsae

we wanted to play lan game for 10hrs but that is only for internet not L4D

and so fatin finally lost her vagin of L4D2...lol...

one thing about going out with fatin is that dunt trust her when it comes to meeting time

she will never be on time

we then we to look for peace centre

omg!!!so far man

cunt believe that no one can read the sign next to peace centre

then we ate macdonald

luckily it was cheap if not...

play and play and play then wanted to play pool

so decided to go dhoby ghout to check out

but in the end we got to find out that it was wayyy expensive man

so we have to follow fatin to ochard centre to shop at cotton onn

guess what???alvin cunt say "finder keeper loser weeper" properly lol....

'actury' fatin cunt pronounce actually...lol...

and for me...well...i mispronounce fabric to 'fibric'...lol...

maybe because of all the korean show i've watch

their bad english is really...well...kinda affecting me...lol...

but i just love watching super junior...so cool man...lol...papo!!!!lol...

2009-12-13T06:30:00.000-08:00

so yesterday was supposed to be our outing to marina barrage

but thanks to someone our plan had to cancel

i mass msg the day before to everyone

so if anyone wanna back out just do it then not last min

so around 11am that very morning hiid msg me saying that he and faz cunt make it coz studying

like WTF lah...my mum alrd cook so much for me to bring and in the end wasted

so frustrated man

so we had a change of plan to go bugis sincehamli wanna get something there

then we meet farhan and went shisha

then lan had tis plan to irritate dayah but the plan back fired

basically i had enough of them and they freaking attitude

im simply just dissapointed because they just totally forget the vow we made

then today i went to arief house to finish my project

i was put to collade the survey alone but i managed to finish it

but i didnt sent cos i didnt have hidayah email

and skandar is any help at all

tml is the presentation and i cunt open the ppt slide

well wat to do when u got this ppl as ur group mate

2009-12-11T01:37:00.000-08:00

today i cried...

in my dream tat is

so i wake up early this morning to pray and had an hr till i have to get ready for school

so i sleep and start to dream

in my dream i found an mp3 and had a name printed on it

then i felt this ache in the heart like she is part of me

in my dream there was a guy that was following me

he was watching out for me w/o me knowing

then i continue walking aimlessly until i reach my grandparent old house

there i saw her...her laughter...her beauty...

she is like an angel coming out of the light

i ran towards her but the faster i ran the further she get

until the point where she dissapered just like that

my heart ache and started crying

it felt so real that it woke me up and tears roll down my cheeks

today viva vosay was okay and managed to answer all the qns

then i was assign to handle the survey form

so stressed...so many things to do

then i have plan for tml outing and wk13 outing to ubin

yesterday me and alvin went to simlim to check the laptop

and learnt new things bout computer

my dream computer cost $2300 with touchsreen LCD player

we went shisha after that so fun!!!!

we blow smoke into bubbles and make a smoky bubble...

then i was super hungry and decided to go home to eat

when i reach home...ARGH!!!!!

THERE WAS NOTHING ELSE LEFT FOR ME TO EAT...

and now im feeling hungry again...

2009-12-09T06:46:00.000-08:00

life is so boring and dull
how i wish it can just be like my dream
just the way i like it
today sub msg me asking whether im in amk or not
so i wonder y
then she told me that she left her shoe bag in the bus and wanna me to retrieve it back
but too bad i dunt have school today
so just stayed home
arief asked me what is my nursing pants size coz he wanna borrow
oh ya...he burn alot of his clothing already lol...
he just cunt handle the iron lol...
so i came to amk to play L4D while waiting for him
then we finally finish playing the last campaign without hiid
the last time we played with him we didnt even survive the 1st round
so i wonder is it he not gd or we werent focus and came to conclude that he not good lol...
then we ate at yusof shop or also known as hardy mirza's shop
we felt so weird ordering plain dish
mee soto and mee rebus without vegetable a.k.a mee baby
the hawker is a bit weird cos at time he joke around with us but at time he act like dunt know us
the managed to chat about our memories of working in IMH
just missed those fun guys(my patients) awwww...

2009-12-08T07:18:00.000-08:00

this is so stupid

just hate watching singapore idols

so obvious that sezairi and sylvia going through

none of them deserve to go to the final man

yes they can sing but none improve and prove to be the next idol

but what is obvious is that the organizer want slyvia to win this

and thanks to singapore idiol that i have nothing to watch tonight

so boring IDIOTS!!!!!

2009-12-07T21:35:00.000-08:00

ya so i start to blog again thanks to jamal...
he help me with my blog everything...

just cunt wait for bear anymore...

so yesterday my group managed to finish our socio project at last...

meet jamal @ mcdonald and decided to lepak...

msg the others but they jus have excuses...

hate when tat happen...

not again with the 'bubbling'...who else but dayah...

thats y now when we guys wanna go somewhere,we just cunt be bother with them...

bear will always follow ninie and dayah...

we are trying to avoid them...

just cunt take it anymore...

when we're out i expect everyone to join in the fun too but this....

this is BULLSHIT!!!!man...

todae miracle happen...

after 2 long years w/o wireless,todae it happen...so happy...

2009-08-10T19:34:00.000-07:00

so it has happen...there goes NDP 2009...im in a mix feeling right now...

so happy we bonded so well but so sad that we are departing...

saturday wa awesome...we had fun and enjoyed the sentosa trip...

they celebrated the august babies which included me...hahaha...

the gifts was so cute...sunday came so fast...

its NDP but everyone wasn't that happy because it shall be our last one together...

most of us are emo but we try to enjoy our last moment together...

our last lunch, balloning, walk at the f1 track, motivating, cheers, dinner and finale...

hiid cried at the ending which make me fells sad...

almost cried but went up to enjoy the last moment...

justin came and accompany me...

then electrico sang 'what do you see' and i get all emotional and wanted to cry again but hold up because my mentor is by my side...its so touch...

then we went down for post parade party...so dissapointed...

there was no DJ and the songs was -_-!!!we had our last moment as a cluster on top of the stage...

then everyone got emotional and started crying...

went aroung hugging everyone for the last time and i started crying too...

the thought of departing is so unbearable...

if only we could do this even after NDP is over...wont it be good...

then yesterday was the encore telecast and channel 5...

i watch until the end and cried when the finale was on...

then went out to meet my cousin at IMH bustop...

we went to buangkok kampong to explore...

there were so many stray dogs...

the environment was so calm and peaceful...

make me forget about the whole emo thing...

then we went to explore serangoon and got lost...

so after hours of walking then we found the road to AMK and so we walk there...

while we were lost in the private land of serangoon, we were talking about how our future house going to be...

then we hang out at the carpark opposite of the mosque...

tlaking about work and our daily lifes...for me, even though i have friends, i can't survive with them but i can survive with a few people only like my cousin, arief and etc...but not the others...

im now in school computer lab listen to alvin's chinese songs and keeping out all the noises from the girls...if only haix...

2009-07-27T03:00:00.000-07:00

friday sucks...im down with fever...so i slept early hoping that my fever will drop down...when i woke up my fever was 37.6 but managed to bring it down to 37.5...haha...i noe jus 0.1 onli but still...i afibrile...i head felt so heavy and i jus push myself to go ndp...i just kept quiet and stick close to arief cos if anything wrong with me he knows what to do...lunch was awful and just eat the raisin thingy...didn't tell anyone bout it...but when night came,im as crazy as crazy can be...???...had fun and the best thing is that my mum got a lime green bag...yahoo!!!!that nite my mum slept in my room like -_-!!!but the best thing is that the worst is over...passed my assessment....YAHOO!!!the wierdess thing is that everyone has started to talk to us...???...what's it...british accent is getting better...and my cough isn't stopping...buhooo...

2009-07-24T04:33:00.000-07:00

today was my theory lab test...

like always in my past 3 yrs in NYP...

nvr did i prepare for my theory test...

it's always last minutes study...

what so funny is that marie and i shared something in common...

we were waiting for each other to leave the examination hall...

we had a good chat after that..haha..

what so surprising was that the test could make someone talk to others...

despite the 'not talking to you"...lol...

you noe wHo...actually talks to fatin...

WOW!!!

im falling sick rite now and afraid that i cunt make it for tml...

NDP here i come...

quite feedup with today's practice...

'you noe who' was praticing and their prac was next week...

and alv have nothing to practice with and his was later on...

ARGH!!!!!

2009-07-22T19:56:00.000-07:00

i noe what you are doing and i noe what you up to...

i saw it just now...

yesterday marie talk to me...

i dunt even noe how come she suddenly so nice...

it true what people say...

you might think that you noe someone but in reality you dunt...

im now only sticking with fatin, gina and alv...

somehow they have started not to acknoledge us...

let it be...

it is so stressful being with them niwae...

whatever...should stop talking bout them...

we went to celebrate arief's birthday...

i treat him lan-gaming and drinks...

while fatin treat him food...

we went to eat at charco's..

yummy but 'kaboom'...

its all chicken and quite expensive...

the days are coming and going so fast...

tomorrow is my theory test and i haven't study...

quite worried...

promised to study and aces my module...

but this rate,i dunt even think im gonna do well...

2009-07-20T20:17:00.000-07:00

i closed my last blog because im out of words...

but lately i have too much to say but have no one to shared with...

my friendship is going haywire...

people jus don't care that much now aday...

im just looking forward for saturdays...

the only day i can be myself...

harry potter recent movie brought my senses back...

draco's character make me realise something...

i like to judge people from the outside not the inside...

people maybe bad but they are not evil...

and people maybe good but they are not a saint...

never judge a book by its cover i'll say...

but for my friends...

i thought we knew each others well BUT....

it turn out that we are like a perfect strangers....

there is nothing in between us, not even trust...

now im playing the bad character in the story...

doing bad things to make them realise...