Left Unspoken

im so fed up with my brothers

one will do niting just to get online and god knows what he'll do

the other one just isn't thinking properly

sometime i think that i dunt even belong in this family

we dunt look alike and our behavior are way out

in term of thinking im way better than them

i have actually said to my mum that mayb,mayb i got mix up in the hospital or something

sometime what my mum do just hurts

i have the habit of asking her what is she cooking for tml

at time she will say im cooking this bcos ur brother dont eat that

he nvr mention bout me before

nvr in my life i heard mum ever said im cooking this instead cos i noe u dunt eat that

she nvr realised anything bout my feeling but pay attention only on my bros

i remember when i was a kid i had to get tuition from my fierce aunt

while my bros got to go tuition at other tutor hs

i was mentally torture that the thought of it make me cry

every time its time for tuition i'll just kept quite until my aunt came

and cried through out the tuition time

but as for my bro,they will always have that smile on their face after tuition

they will nvr noe the meaning of emotional trauma

mum and dad have been pampering them since young

everything i did was wrong but everything they did was right

i remembered all the trouble my brother caused but nothing happen to him

for me,jus saying back and i'll get a lecture

dad nvr love me as much as them all he do is complain to my mum bout how i treat him

since young i've been living my life w/o dad and sibling

although they are there but they were nvr there for me when i need it

mum was there at time only

i crying rite now while blogging cos it hurts to know that from young im not love

i learn to depend on my self and i think tats why i am who i am rite now

I JUST HATE EVERYTHING!!!!!!!

HATE!!!!!!HATE!!!!!HATE!!!!

even if i die they dunt care...

since when they care...

all i heard form mum was 'we care'

ya...whats the point of saying but not doing it...

i think that why im closer to others than my own family...